Today is Thursday. The 4th day of the work week. The oh so glorious Friday eve. The day where people become tired of being tired and anxious for the weekend to hurry up and get here...
I have really been feeling like I spend my Monday thru Friday Living for Saturday and then my Sunday is spent preparing for Monday to Friday. It has become a never ending cycle of monotonous conundrum...
My Saturday's always end up disappointing too because I either clean all day and wish I had rested or I rest all day and wish I cleaned. When I go out and hang I feel like I shoulda stayed in and chilled and when I am home doing nothing I wish i had gone out and had fun. damn I suck, lol...
So anyway, been thinking about ways to change this and stop living for the weekends... Also trying to dig a little deeper and learn why I am allowing myself to live like this. Am I just getting old? am I being lazy? am I crazy?
Even though I joke about being an ole lady, I really don't feel old at all.. I feel quite young and vibrant... My kids are so busy they don't allow me to be lazy... quite the opposite actually... and as for the crazy, well..............everybody has a little crazy in them.
Of course work is work... something I have to do but, I have these wonderful children, and we do a lot together but there is always room to do more...got an amazing husband.. always room for more one on one time... could call my grandmother more... I need to get myself in better shape.. always wanted to read more, paint more... mom been encouraging me to start rollerblading... wanted to dig deeper into cooking, like learning more about spices and stuff...
maybe i should create a goal list... hmmm....I think i will.
2 comments:
I soooooo feel you. I used to feel bad when, but it gives me something to look forward too. The weekends is a great opportunity to do something for you. Work is a necessary evil so I deal. I'm not a big fan of my job, but I am searching for a career I love. Contemplating going back to school yet again...maybe law school. :) Big dreams...but I know I can do it. We need to find our true passions, what we love to do. Also I think the cooking thing is a fabulous idea...I'm always using nre recipes and tweaking them. Also I vowed to do more couple stuff with my boo...hiking, camping, fishing, biking...my first adventure joining his softball team which has been fun. i love that you are not settling for medocrity...there's no place for it in my life I believe. You should always want more...never stop that's when you get old. And never beat yourself up for going out more, doing more or wanting to more. What's life without the adventure? We are so blessed and we should act on those blessings everyday. The best thing to do is forge forward and embrace life. once again love the post and this has been my short blurb. :)
I hear you on this. Make a list, hang it somewhere so you are forced to look at it and complete. You can do it. You've identified the problem now make the change.
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